the things you never wanted to know.

...&there's no where to go.
Lalaala :)

I don't think I've ever felt so content in my entire life.
Thank you, karma! I'm free! i'm finally fucking free!
No more burdens. demons, secrets, enemies, nothin'!
I love the way things are going for me right now.

I've got a couple mainss: Will Seguin & Aaron Daly. Love you guyss<333333




Good first day of school.
MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!
:D

You still give me butterflies.
A&F
<3333

is changing my life with every word I read.
Anthony Kiedis is completely beyond inspirational.
Thank you Michael Bozzo for making me promise you that I would read his story.
He reminds me a lot about you, to be honest.
I think that's why I have such an interest in him.


To anyone who knows Chris Lameo,
...........................................................he's mine. :) <333

I made a phone call that I sort of wish I didn't.
I've been fucking up bad. I almost lost my job(again), I haven't gone to school in over a month, shit ain't too sweet with a lot of people anymore.
I feel my life caving again and today has just been the most miserable realization ever.


Strike two, Miranda.

I don't understand how you could ever consider yourself to be my best friend. Among all of the people I've ever met in my life, you've by far treated me the absolute worst. You've lied to my face too many times to count, you've cheated on me, stabbed me in the back more times than I can remember, you just overall have only straight up fucked me over. The only reason I could even talk to you with any sort of respect is because of our drug induced schemes. That's all you're about. You abuse massive amounts of anything on the daily just to make yourself feel like some sort of a human being. I could almost consider you a monster. You can't hide behind getting fucked up forever. Then what? Every time you tell me you love me, you want to marry me, we're going to live happy with children one day, no matter what I was always the one, I smile and go along with it to keep you content. You want to know what's really going on in my head? "YOU ARE SO FULL OF SHIT!" that's the one thing always popping into my head when you speak to me. I have absolutely no trust or respect for you. I've tried for too long and have wasted too much to try to be there for you NO MATTER WHAT YOU'VE PUT ME THROUGH. You don't appreciate a damn thing. I couldn't even begin to explain how fucked up you've made me over the four years. I've driven myself insane just thinking about you. I can't do this anymore. I'm not going to be pushed around and taken advantage of.
Bottom line: You're never going to change & I give up.

Hey. Yeah, you there.
I was just wondering if you're going to keep drugs the most important thing in your life forever.
You are? Haha Why doesn't that surprise me.
It's ok, I'm not one to point fingers.
I mean yeah, I have my priorities in line and everything while you don't, but that's just ok, isn't it?
Yeah mann, it's always just ok. :)

WHO CARES, RIGHT!?


I've had an interesting couple of dayss.
I love my life. No lie. <333

I just stopped crying.
Yep, I saw it coming.
"I'm gonna change, ok?"
No, not ok. You know why?
Because you're never going to change. You're never going to grow up and realize that the ones "bitching" at you all of the time are actually, the only people who really care about you and where you're going to end up.
The way I see it, it's not anywhere near good.

I am leaving for D.C. tomorrow, niggaaa!!!!


I can't even begin to explain to you how happy I am right now!!!!
:D
I got to chill with Michael today for a couple of hours. It's the first time I've seen that cute face in 6 fucking monthss!
I swearrr, I'm invincible when I'm with him. 4 years and stilll at it!<3
Now I know why people write cute lil' love songs and cry to chick flicks.
He gave me his journal from when he was in there.
A bunch of entries, poems and songs...and a story.
I've read everything but the story. I promised him I would wait till I'm on my way to Washington D.C to read it.
Temptation is killingg meee!!!!!

Aghh! I'm just so overwhelmed with so many positive thingss.
I don't ever want this feeling to go away.
& to think, I'm completely sober. :)

Michael comes home tomorrow! :D
I can't waitt!!!!!!

I leave the day after for Washington D.C. nigga!
Anddd lasttt day of school tomorrow!
This week is hella crayyzzzeee!
:DDDD

Untill school is over.
Untill Michael comes home.
Untill I get over that fucking douche bag(D.S).

Till then, let'ss partyy!!!
:)

I'm no longer a student at South Fort Myers High School!
I withdrew a couple of weeks ago.
I just started at Coronado. =/
It's interestingg. lol
At least I got Doug! =D

I got a lott on muh mind.
Whatev. Laterrr.

Shit has been so weird lately.
I miss him more than anything. :(
why am I so weak around him?
I let him get the best of me and it ruins my day every time.


Something needs to happen. I need help.
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, and she's out with her boy friend.
Whateverrr.




I'm starting to come ot realize that this whole situation is going to drive me to the point of insanity.
If it already hasn't...

Good news:
I'M GOING TO SEE GYM CLASS HEROES IN 2 WEEKS, NIGGAAA!!!!!!
Then, Halloween Horror Nightss Oct. 18th!!!!
Then, Chiodos Nov. 1st!!!!!
Dude, I'm so stokedd!!!!!
:DDDDD <33333333333

Today's my daddy's brifday! :)
I'm getting him some new shoes. lol

Oh& I decided on what I'm going to do.
Fuck itt mann. Shit's just not worth it anymore.
I finally cleared up my head and it's all good.
I'm back to mah ol' self & it feels great!!!
:D <33333

These past 3 days have been total emotional hell.
I don't know if it's because I'm PMSing or if it's just because I've been staying at my mom's house.
Neither one is usually this bad.
My head has been so messed up lately.
I hate the realization of things.
I don't know what I want or how to figure out what I want.
The fact that I'm so bipolar about everything doesn't quite help either.


On a positive note.
I'm pretty sure me and Alexis and Heather are set friends again, which makes me really happy.
I always have fun with them.

Another thing, I need to lay of on smoking so much.
It's to the point where I have to smoke every day in order to feel any better.
It helps, but it's not what I want to become.
I don't want to become a total burnout.
But, dammit weed is such a good thing.
:/

I just got a text from John saying that he might have to go to jail for a few days!
WTF!! Fucking cops and their bullshit laws.
I hate em'! I don't want my baby going to jail. :(((((((
Ugh! I need to be cheered up.

Haha I'm watching Rocket Power. :)
I know, I know. I'm cool.

You know what I've been thinking of lately?
I want to start a new life for myself. Like, start over.
No beef with people, no drama, no missing anybody, no regrets, no more hiding,just no more anything.
I want become a totally, brand new Miranda.
Just an entirely new person, a new me.
Sort of like a butterfly.

I need opinions. Be honest.
What do I need to change to become a better person?
What should I do? Where do I start?
But, don't anybody mention anything about smoking.
Cause, that's just not going to change.  :)


Dude, Flubber is a great movie!

I'm tired, bored, and sort of thirsty.
My doggie is being super cute! lol

Well, this "war" thing between my and Liah is pretty bogus and unnecessary  if you ask me.
I'm in a pretty decent mood for the time being.
I've been really happy at school for some reason. Weird.
Well, this is just a quick post before I go to bed.
OHH!!!! &MY BIRTHDAY IS ON MONDAY(August 25th)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get me somthin'!!!!!!!!#@^%(*&^^^$&)~~!!!
:D G'nightt! <3333333